Inspiration

It's 2011! Next year I leave Connecticut, I am so excited about that. I think not knowing where I am going gives me that excitement, but the anticipation drives me crazy. I have met a lot of wonderful people here many of them I hope to keep in contact some I could care less about. The thing that I have found myself needing is strength to go forward. I have had so many obstacles around me that each time I move ahead I am somehow pushed back, no matter how I have approached the situation there is someone always telling me that I am not good enough. "What?" Is my thought,then I think "you don't even know me", when I hear that. "You don't know my struggles and you definitely aren't helping me progress with those negative thoughts or actions". That's what I think. The negative people, their negative thoughts, the ones that tell me I can't, well those are the people that inspire me.

Life

It's Sunday and it snowed last night. Yeah snow, only if I were in school and not a full time employee. Life is great of course, just a view things going on in my work life. After I posted my last post I questioned whether or not I would continue to share my thoughts online, with no one at the moment because I don't believe anyone is reading my message which is okay with me. Well anyway the snow blower guy is outside doing what he is suppose to do. I am getting ready go and do some laundry. I think I know what I am going to do once I retire which is in six years. It's kind of like a light bulb actually came on today while eating my bowl of Cheerios. I love it. Well it's shower time.

Happiness

Who or what makes a person happy? I am pretty sure that you make you happy but we don't always think that. No one can do that but the person within. It starts first with you. Happiness.

Yes!

It's a new year, finally! Same me, that will never change. I have decided to upgrade some of me. For instance I think I will give love a real try this year. Not that the previous years I didn't try but the men in my life were just so subpar. This year however, I am actually going to give a damn about the things I say, do, and how I act. Well I am going to try. I am also going to be more committed to me. My betterment, my everything. In 2010 people told me what to do and it wasn't a bad thing but this year, I am going to run me and for the rest of my life, well until I pop out a few kids. Keeping in the tradition of resolutions, I have resolved not to make a real resolution why should I bother if I know I am not going to work on keeping it. I can honestly say that I will try to be a better person, love more, communicate better, remember things that are somewhat important and love ME! I am going to work out at least one extra day, stop wasting money on things that don't matter, and I am going to try and do something positive at least once a month (for me).
Also I finally finished with my bachelor's degree program. I am so excited. This was the one thing that I had to do for me. That was my one goal of 2010 and I did it. It's a silent victory for me because there is so much more that I want to do and yes I will do them all. Oh one more thing, I am going to try and write more, it's liberating. Have a great day and remember you control your path, light it however you need to but don't forget the road you travelled someone might need your light to guide them.