Things Happen for a Reason..or so I am told....

It's been forever since I posted. I am moving soon God willing. I am almost finished with my first career and hopefully I can begin to work on my second career, teaching. I want to make a difference in a positive way for people. I have been in Connecticut for almost three years, it's been rough. Of course everything has it's ups and downs. I can't say whether or not there were more downs than ups but I am almost finished. My personal life is still the same no changes. I never thought I would be at this stage of my life with just me to worry about. Strange. Whitney Houston died this year. I was so devastated when I heard that she had passed, not that I didn't expect for her life to end early if she kept on living the life that the media stated she did. I really hoped that she would have lived to a tender age past 85, it wasn't in the cards. Her and Michael Jackson were my all time favorite stars in the music world. It's crazy how these people touch your life and when they leave you sometimes feel a little empty. Death is so final.

Inspiration

It's 2011! Next year I leave Connecticut, I am so excited about that. I think not knowing where I am going gives me that excitement, but the anticipation drives me crazy. I have met a lot of wonderful people here many of them I hope to keep in contact some I could care less about. The thing that I have found myself needing is strength to go forward. I have had so many obstacles around me that each time I move ahead I am somehow pushed back, no matter how I have approached the situation there is someone always telling me that I am not good enough. "What?" Is my thought,then I think "you don't even know me", when I hear that. "You don't know my struggles and you definitely aren't helping me progress with those negative thoughts or actions". That's what I think. The negative people, their negative thoughts, the ones that tell me I can't, well those are the people that inspire me.

Life

It's Sunday and it snowed last night. Yeah snow, only if I were in school and not a full time employee. Life is great of course, just a view things going on in my work life. After I posted my last post I questioned whether or not I would continue to share my thoughts online, with no one at the moment because I don't believe anyone is reading my message which is okay with me. Well anyway the snow blower guy is outside doing what he is suppose to do. I am getting ready go and do some laundry. I think I know what I am going to do once I retire which is in six years. It's kind of like a light bulb actually came on today while eating my bowl of Cheerios. I love it. Well it's shower time.

Happiness

Who or what makes a person happy? I am pretty sure that you make you happy but we don't always think that. No one can do that but the person within. It starts first with you. Happiness.

Yes!

It's a new year, finally! Same me, that will never change. I have decided to upgrade some of me. For instance I think I will give love a real try this year. Not that the previous years I didn't try but the men in my life were just so subpar. This year however, I am actually going to give a damn about the things I say, do, and how I act. Well I am going to try. I am also going to be more committed to me. My betterment, my everything. In 2010 people told me what to do and it wasn't a bad thing but this year, I am going to run me and for the rest of my life, well until I pop out a few kids. Keeping in the tradition of resolutions, I have resolved not to make a real resolution why should I bother if I know I am not going to work on keeping it. I can honestly say that I will try to be a better person, love more, communicate better, remember things that are somewhat important and love ME! I am going to work out at least one extra day, stop wasting money on things that don't matter, and I am going to try and do something positive at least once a month (for me).
Also I finally finished with my bachelor's degree program. I am so excited. This was the one thing that I had to do for me. That was my one goal of 2010 and I did it. It's a silent victory for me because there is so much more that I want to do and yes I will do them all. Oh one more thing, I am going to try and write more, it's liberating. Have a great day and remember you control your path, light it however you need to but don't forget the road you travelled someone might need your light to guide them.

Technology and Texting Making us Dumb

I am sitting here at 6:05 in the morning thinking, that as I get older, people get dumber. What ever happened to having a little common sense? Has technology made us so advanced that we are now falling behind in the smarts department? I have so many examples that has prompted me to write these few words that I will only address one and the real reason I thought to post, it's like the straw that broke the camels back. When I am on a website or forum reading someones post and he or she writes something that is solely abbreviations I think, "What are you trying to say". I know some people aren't college graduates and some people didn't do well in school but come on, it's hard enough trying to decipher some of the crap they say and then to try to make sense of if all is just too painful at times. What is sumfin? I blame all of this on primarily being lazy then on the advancements of the world. They are a double edge sword. Eventually people will not be able to spell a word because they have created an entirely new word to represent the true word. I just wanted to voice me concern for our future. I don't need some texter taking care of me when I get to be 80 or 90 and the person has a hard time reading actual worlds. We have to take a stand and get our future back on track......Education is the key. Read a book, write a letter, and please stop to smell the roses....!

6:57 pm

I want to say something but what? I just feel like writing. It's snowing outside and I am stuck inside. I want to be somewhere else but I am stuck here. It's funny how things work out when you are suppose to be one place but you are in another. Life has a way of changing your feelings and thoughts about people. I often wondered why people do things in their life but now I wonder why people don't do things with their life. The only way to be where you want to be is to do something that will get you there. Of course, if you don't plan on being anything, than why bother.